(frustrated groan)

Feb. 11th, 2026 05:23 pm
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Finally found out why my Procreate time lapse videos look terrible sometimes. They're set to 1080p "good" quality by default, but my canvases are larger than the 1920x1080, so my art gets scaled down during replay. Also, since the quality is just "good" (as opposed to the highest quality, lossless) some brushes (usually textured ones) look super rough in the video playback, and adding noise or some other texture on top of the canvas makes it look super crunchy.

Of course, I had to realize this after I've spent a total of 14 hours drawing something, when I can't retroactively fix the video quality. :( Noooo...

The lesson of the story is to fix the video quality when creating a new file/canvas preset. I honestly don't know why I spent months thinking, "Oh the time lapse feature really is just like that, it's probably an app limitation." I only bothered to check now because the way it shat all over the piece I just drew was beyond ridiculous.

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Tarot prompts

Feb. 10th, 2026 09:12 pm
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 - Two of Swords - Denial, debate, impasse, truce

 

“I give up. This is the fourth time we’ve done this and I still can’t figure it out. I should just stop while I’m behind.” She paused. “Thank you for trying to help, but I think we’re at an impasse now.”

 

“Probably,” he agreed. “Maybe we can come back to it some other time, but I don’t think we’re going to get anywhere right now.”

 

“I’m sorry.”

 

“Don’t be.”

 

- Nine of Wands - Toughness, persistence, stamina, loyalty, release 

 

“You’re doing such a good job continuing with the physician-assisted recovery program.” Mel said. “A lot of people don’t maintain their commitment once they come back.”

 

“Well, I made a promise to get better and stay clean for my kids, and I intend on doing that.”

 

“That’s a very good goal.”

 

 

- Queen of Swords - Grace, skill, wit, charm, aptitude

 

“Look at you, all witty and smart,” she teased. At least he’d made her laugh, which she had needed today. 

 

“I have my moments,” he said, grinning back at her. “Are you feeling better?”

 

“Yes, thank you.”


Ouch

Feb. 10th, 2026 09:55 pm
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Got a new pair of steel-toed work boots and, what can I say, my feet hurt. Blisters etc. Ah well. Last time I got new work boots it took me about 2-3 weeks to properly break them in and it was painful as fuck, but once I had, they were solid. One of the most comfortable pairs of shoes I have had so far in my life. Sadly the sole was breaking down so I had to get new ones. Good thing I'll be off work tomorrow so I can just rest my feet once I got all my other plans done!

I also want to start watching Fallout and maybe write a little more. Progress has been steady, but about as painful as my feet feel right now. Like pulling teeth to finally get into a flow. (And then half the time I'm too tired to write more than two paragraphs).

Well... 2 more weeks and then I'll have a week off to relax. And by god, I will just lock myself away and not talk to anyone. I want peace and quiet and not be interrupted by family or other visitors. Not to mention last time I had a proper week off that I was looking forward to, we had a medical emergency and it actually ruined my entire week off because of hospital visits and shit. Avoidable "at home" accident, too. 

Without doing the psychology deep dive, I've had enough shit happen almost every damn time I was actually looking forward to something, that I have begun dreading any form of free time, because I already expect something bad to happen again and ruin it. Same with staying up late. So many times I've stayed up really late (until morning) and was physically and mentally exhausted when shit happened, that I can't relax anymore when I stay up late. The anxiety ruins everything. My brain, I swear.
[personal profile] overmore
Working on a possibly slightly longer fic than my last few (i hope at least) and I've come to realization that at this point in Limbus Company, I have no idea where the freaking end will lead. My current expectation is that the main cast will turn against LC (as that one canto 9 Gesellschaft scene leads me to think not everything is as it seems to be there) but that's kinda about it. Trying to write a post canon fic here is pretty much just saying 'random bullshit go' and hoping it lands. Considering it's gregclair, it's also kinda hard to figure out how to treat Gregor's bug arm, especially after last canto. How will that thing affect him later in the game, I have no idea, and honestly I don't think anyone can answer it. I will go with it still being there since there's nothing else I can work off of, but still.

Also, the state of the City? We're clearly about to have a mass death situation, after which the main cast has to do SOMETHING to get it to a normal state of things. My general idea is that by the end of it, everything will be calm, Head will probably be gone, the whole City will need to be rebuild in terms of how it functions at least. I'm hesitant to say if there will still be the divide between the nest and backstreets, so I guess ignoring the thing comepleatly is the way to go?

This is a lot of thought for a fic that's essentially one where Gregor is trying to not be afraid of being the possibility of being a bad parent because his mother messed him up lol.
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Everyone knows I am a certified The Great Gatsby glazer. So going into this novel, while I expected it to be enjoyable (I wouldn't read it otherwise!), I definitely didn't expect it to be anywhere near as good as TGG. And even though it wasn't, I was pleasantly surprised that it was better than I expected.

First of all, I'll talk about the part of this novel that I undoubtedly loved the best: its prose! The language used, the writing style, the flow of the sentences. Genuinely perfect. I had such a fun time reading it that sometimes it wasn't even about the story itself or the characters, I was just in awe of the vivid descriptions and vocabulary. Fitzgerald has one of those writing styles that I am terribly envious of. Its poetic without ever being boring or slow or too dense. Unimaginably beautiful.

Of course in the same vein the dialogue is similarly effective. Sometimes witty and brief, banter between two or more characters (I quite liked the chapters where it was written like a screenplay, with mostly just dialogue) but also sometimes monologues. But always interesting.

"I've got a streak of what you'd call cheapness. I don't know where I get it but it'sโ€”oh, things like this and bright colors and gaudy vulgarity. I seem to belong here. These people would appreciate me and take me for granted, and these men would fall in love with me and admire me, whereas the clever men I meet would just analyze me and tell me I'm this because of this or that because of that."

โ€”Anthony for a moment wanted fiercely to paint her, to her down now, as she was, as, as with each relentless second she could never be again.

The characters are not likeable at all. Perhaps in some, very few moments, they are relatable. But never likeable. They are awful people who wallow in self-pity and you know from the very beginning that they cannot change and will not change even if it destroys them. But this doesn't subtract from the book. For me at least, the intrigue came from wanting to find out all the ways they could doom themselves. You don't even really feel sorry for them when they are down on their luck, but you're sucked into their lives nonetheless. Like watching a car crash in slow motion.

That being said, I was quite endeared to the dynamic between some different characters, particularly the foursome friend group between Anthony/Gloria/Maury/Dick. They all have such vivid and distinct personalities and I love them all in a twisted way. Though ironically Anthony the protagonist was the one I found to be... not least interesting, but least unique? I suppose? Any way, they worked well in the way that I didn't really care in a sympathetic way about their suffering, but I still enjoyed seeing them interact.

Now, the story itself, which I suppose is in a way joined as one with 'the characters'. This is a very character-driven book, it is a detail of their lives after all, almost to a detriment. It's effective and pretty simple when you look at the big picture: this couple has an addiction to hedonism and self-destruction that makes them as beautiful as they are damned. (Say that again?) It is rather fun to watch the way they descend into poverty and hopelessness. And I love how it ends with them winning, except it isn't really a victory because they don't deserve it and the cycle will just repeat again, the money will run out. Nothing changes. Nothing ever happens. That's the tragedy.

"Dot," he whispered uncomfortably, "you'll forget. Things are sweeter when they're lost. I knowโ€”because once I wanted something and got it. It was the only thing I ever wanted badly, Dot. And when I got it it turned to dust in my hands. ...

I've often thought that if I hadn't got what I wanted things might have been different with me. I might have found something in my mind and enjoyed putting it in circulation. I might have been content with the work of it, and had some sweet vanity out of the success. I suppose that at one time I could have had anything I wanted, within reason, but that was the only thing I ever wanted with any fervor. God! And that taught me you can't have anything, you can't have anything at all. Because desire just cheats you. It's like a sunbeam skipping here and there about a room. It stops and gilds some inconsequential object, and we poor fools try to grasp itโ€”but when we do the sunbeam moves on to something else, and you've got the inconsequential part, but the glitter that made you want it is goneโ€”"

There are dislikes I have with this novel. For one, it feels very monotonous in its storytelling. I wish there were more clear-cut plot beats; as it is it just feels like one big drone of event after event going on and on and on. Almost like a list, or a formal Wikipedia description of their lives. It's just a little bit poorly structured. I'm not describing this well but that's one thing that bothered me, even if the deeply interesting story and characters and amazing prose made up for it. The other thing that I hated was of course the racism. Like I said, this is a common part of classics, but it really is so bad here. I could barely stand to read about any mention of a character of color because even if they were unimportant they would be subject to some horrendous stereotype or portrayal. Puke.

But that aside, I loved the rest of this novel, and as a whole. As I said on Storygraph: it's not as tightly written or as thematically compelling as The Great Gatsby, but it's impressive in its own right. The prose makes it a joy to read, it's especially brilliant if you love main characters who are utter assholes but are deeply human nonetheless (not comically evil), and a great window into the society of the Jazz Age.

Honestly, I'm having a lot of trouble rating this... even though there are so many little flaws and gripes I had, I feel like I had such a lovely time reading it. I'll go with 8/10.

... I can almost look down the tracks and see you going but without you, dearest, dearest, I can't see or hear or feel or think. Being apartโ€”whatever has happened or will happen to usโ€”is like begging for mercy from a storm, Anthony; it's like growing old. I want to kiss you soโ€”in the back of your neck where your old black hair starts. Because I love you and whatever we do or say to each other, or have done, or have said, you've got to feel how much I do, how inanimate I am when you're gone. I can't even hate the damnable presence of people, those people in the station who haven't any right to liveโ€”I can't resent them even though they're dirtying up our world, because I'm engrossed in wanting you so.

If you hated me, if you were covered with sores like a leper, if you ran away with another woman or starved me or beat meโ€”how absurd this soundsโ€”

I'd still want you, I'd still love you. I KNOW, my darling.

quick checking in!

Feb. 10th, 2026 01:53 am
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Dreamwidth is absolutely broken for me right now and I have no idea why LOL, but I wanted to make a post because it's been over a month and also I missed out on doing [community profile] snowflake_challenge (which I am a bit sad about...) and ALSO there has been shit going down that pisses me off and if that could be the catalyst that gets me to blog again I would not complain.

2026 has been... something. In many ways!!! But I'm determined to keep on keeping on and to have a good time no matter what... I never did end up making that post looking back on 2025 or whatever it was I wanted to do, but maybe that's for the best in retrospect... I'd still kinda like to write down stuff I'd like to do over 2026 though. So maybe I'll try doing that once, huh... Dreamwidth fixes itself on my end... (If it's still broken tomorrow I'll try to figure that out, or something...)

In light of the ongoing attempts to Crack Down On Pornography I've also been contemplating posting some of that on here, especially stuff I'm not as inclined to share elsewhere right now lawl. So there might be some of that in the future? If there is, rest assured the "worst" of it will be posted under cuts with warnings and probably friends only. So there is that o7

Anyway I picked the worst time to make a post because it's almost 2am and I need to SLEEP but here's a further quick rundown...

1) I'm still so deep in the Corbeau/L mines you guys. Check out the chibi I drew for my my [personal profile] candyheartsex letter... I wanted to share it here a month ago and then I never ended up doing it so here it is now!!!



2) THE PROTOMEN ACT III CAME OUT AND I'M STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT IT INTERNALLYYYYYYYY literally listening to it right now lol. I ordered a physical album but it's going to be delivered to a friend in the US so I won't get it until the summer... Also I was so excited to get it I didn't think to check the rest of the store and now I'm sad I didn't get the The Good Doctor Part 2 poster considering it literally features my ship </3 Maybe I'll try to get it later... But in the meantime you should look at it because it rules...

3) It's [tumblr.com profile] perfworldweek right now!!! Actually saying this made me realize I forgot to advertize it starting on [community profile] fandomcalendar today OOP. Maybe this is what I should do before going to bed actually lmao.

Okay this was chaotic as hell and I have no idea what it's going to look like considering how fucked up this is on my end but hopefully it's not too bad ??? I'll see you later o7 wait before I go you should check out [community profile] pkmnkinkmeme if you haven't seen it yet... Okay now I'm leaving au revoir o7

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Feb. 9th, 2026 10:42 pm
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 My 4yo nephew is visiting and I feel like a grumpy old grandma when I hear him stomping downstairs at, like, 9pm. My mom would have never allowed me to be up and about past 7pm, lol. I vividly remember that I had to be in bed around 8pm when I was already 12.

Anyway. Every time we have guests I just want to lock myself away. I don't even want to bump into anyone. My brain just cannot handle the meeting. I'd rather stay in my rooms for a week straight and forego all other plans. I simply can't relax when other people are in the household. A bit neurotic, perhaps, but I can't help it. Something in my brain rejects the presence.
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Feb. 9th, 2026 11:37 am
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god fuck the internet sometimes

Day log: 09/02

Feb. 9th, 2026 11:47 pm
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Good day today! It's the last day of break since class starts today so I wanted to make it worth it. I spent quite a lot, 25 euros, but I'll try my best to be diligent the rest of the week about being cheap. 20 euros until Sunday is doable, isn't it? Haha...

I woke up late because I stayed up last night reading through pages upon pages of old-timey Three Houses discourse, an underrated joy of life. I went to eat Taco Bell... the 5-layer burrito is so good actually. Also maybe it's a Dutch thing but why is the fire sauce not that spicy? I could've sworn it was way spicier back home. I'll definitely remember to bring my tabasco and sauce next time. Also the cup is refillable which is Awesome I drank like 3 glasses worth of green tea. Yes I pissed like a racehorse but so worth it.

I went to the bookstore after that. After such a long time of searching I found Open Throat by Henry Hoke! But I was put off by the priceโ€”14 euros for a book that's barely 150 pages. I could probably read it in under an hour when I could get another much longer book for a similar price. I searched for TVD, but despite the cashier telling me where to find it, no luck. I'm thinking that next time, I'll go again and see if TVD or another book I really want is there. I'll buy that, and then read Open Throat in the cafe upstairs without buying it. Since I already bought another book, it'll cancel out and I can be guilt-free about scamming them a little. That's how it works, right?

Went to the library after and finished The Beautiful and Damned. Okay, I feel like I say this about every book so maybe I'm just easy to please, but I liked it! I'll write out a post on it soon. I regret that since I had to return the book I don't have it anymore, I like to go through books a little even after I finish them, but oh well.

Then I got Less than Zero from the library! Finally, a new book that's actually on my TBR lol. I'll read Sayaka Murata's Earthlings first, but I'm sure I can finish both by the end of February.

My paper is due on the 14th. I have time I think, but I should finish that up soon. Not before I work on Body on the tracks, though! Even though it's not as popular as it was initially I'm still super excited to finish it.

Pretty good day. Thumbs up from me.
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1,000,072 words

Feb. 9th, 2026 08:39 am
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And I passed the 1M words written (not all of them edited!!) (yet!) this morning. It was so strange to add my daily couple of paragraphs to the Leopard/Tree fic knowing this was coming lol. Wow. Glad I had my little crisis about it last year so I can just nod at it today while I step above it (crisis: โœ…). I think when I started writing again in 2020 and firmly settled on the "one million bad words before you can get to the good ones" mindset, I expected I'd feel at least competent when I reached the milestone. Alas. Maybe because of the crappy first half of last year, I feel like I lost 2/3 of what I knew and still have to relearn so much about my own process and how to (hopefully) write well -- I've done it once or twice before, surely I can again ;) Anyway, that's done! \o/ Next milestone, one million edited words??? Though I guess I'm not really measuring that in any way that's easy to track, haha. It'll work out ;D This is cool. Maybe I should bake a word count celebratory cake like I used to during the lockdowns. Though I'll have to write the digits on top very small with so many of them now XD (Edit: OR MAKE A BIGGER CAKE I GUESS!!!!)

I miss sitting down with the concept for a novel and having a long first draft to lose myself into ahead of me, but mentally I can't do that while I have two other on-going novels, especially with the Soul Thief still a first draft itself. I think maybe when the structural edits are completed, that may free up the mental slot for "Big First Draft." I started the prep work on that, spending some time thinking about why I wrote it and what I want to leave readers with before actually starting the edits, this time. Like, who is the actual audience, also.

Rambles on who to share one's writing with... )

Anyway, reaching a big milestone you've been working toward for years is kind of incredible actually. I'm awed. I'm happy. If nothing else, I've proven to myself that I can stick with it. I've learnt a ton. I've made connections with people, both on the reader side and on the writer side. Met all of you here! And I'm so excited to learn even more in the coming 5-to-10 years, which is the time period I'd given myself for that original milestone, haha. ONWARD!! :D
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40 Days of Drabbles > 2026

Feb. 8th, 2026 07:45 pm
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[community profile] 40daysofdrabbles - so I created this community a few months ago in honor of the old request challenge thing I used to do (of various degrees of success). I am tempted to use the community in the style of [community profile] adventdrabbles, 'cause it seems wasteful not do more with it. So I'll probably post "prompts" daily there for the period of Lent.

Lent is starting February 18th, and again I'm not really religious (despite my family wishes), but I figured I could try this challenge again and see if I could exercise my writing abilities a bit more. I'm gonna try and get everything written & posted by Easter, or by end of April at the latest. *fingerscrossed*

You do not have to be a "friend" to request a pairing, but if you are unsure of a fandom/pairing I like - my list is located here (while not complete exactly, it's mostly is) or feel free to check out the tag list on [community profile] harpiewriting for ships I've already wrote for. I also technically have a list of Crossover pairings but that hasn't really been edited since 2012 so yeah... Also some of these fandoms are old and I have not recently watched them (or at times finished them).

Request as much as you want since there are so many slots open.... I'll try to pick the ones I know for sure I can/will write & add them to the table. Prompts aren't required. (Or preferably use a prompt from one of my tables I need to write for! :P ) Drabbles will at least be 100 words, maybe more depending on the plot bunnies.

I rarely write dark fics, smut, or super angsty stuff, so if you prefer that, I might not be able to do it? If you have any Do Not Wants, let me know otherwise it'll be whatever my brain can think up.

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